08:07 pm - mew So today was really friggin hard. I cried alot but got alot of stuff out of me too. This breakup is really hard on me. It's easy breezy for him...but for me....lets just say the word rollercoaster.
I found a new metaphysical bookshop that is closer than the Manna Reading Center. It was nice to find it and the owners are very welcoming. They offer alot of free classes so I think I might go to some in my spare time. I bought an Isis necklace that will carry me through the testing times and also bring me alot of luck.
Tomorrow I will go and *get* a job working at FedEx.
Lets see what happens! Current Mood: determined Current Music: School Of Seven Bells
03:02 pm - Reminder to self Although I am so busy today I have to remember to get at least one good entry in.
So much to write about.
Too busy now though...running around doing chores and being a house kitten.
Even though we are in the midst of a relationship break (not break up) Matt was nice enough to buy me a new Zune today since mine broke on Sunday.
It seemed like the world was falling all around me anyways and then out of nowehere my zune breaks. Now anyone should know music is my life. I need my zune....it is a requirement. Im sure I could live without it but it would really really really suck.
I took its mechanical death as a signal of some sort. So did Matthew. When it happened you could have thought a person died. It was pretty much the straw that broke this kittens back. I've been holding up under pressure pretty well but this was too much.
And you know what the funny thing is? When it broke I was just beginning to listen to a meditation titled "Meditation for Use in A Crisis"
Nice one universe. Your cruelty factor on that one was beyond compare.
I know I know it's just a stupid piece of equipment...but it brings me solace, helps me concentrate, release, and meditate.
I am so thankful to have Matthew around. He is certainly priceless. How many boyfriends (or pseudo ex boyfirends) would do this....what a sweet robot.
Sometimes I wish I could hate him. But alas it is pretty much impossible. I think he wishes the same thing of me. He is in some weird crisis of some sort. He feels restless and thinks he needs space but knows he will be back with me soon. At the same time he wants me to register for school and see me being a little bit more active with my creations. I understand that. I'm pretty much convinced this break is just there to light a fire under me and get me going. I have grown a bit too comformtable and I can admit that now.
So I spend my days walking around looking for any extra work I can. And so is everyone else in the world. At the same time in a couple of days I will start doing some community service. I have ALOT of it to do so it kind of sucks but some part of me doesnt mind doing it. I hope I get something nifty to do like working with a church feeding the homeless or doing something in the hospital. I wouldn't mind that kind of service. Now working for the county and doing outside labor...now THAT would be a bitch. (oh and dont ask me why I have to do it cause I won't tell you)
Also I am hooking up with this Tom Foolery character and helping him make some beats. He is pretty thick into the electronic scene (breaks) so I am very excited about this. I am going to try to make some good theremin music with this nice piece of equipment he is getting shipped down here. I really hope this pans out. This good be a pretty great break for me and Matthew as well!!!
Other than this I have a new artist neighbor. He is in his mid forties and is pretty accomplished so he is going to help me with my art studies!!! Also Voodoo the cat is doing well...a little bit under the weather but he is okay.
Oh my good brother had another baby girl! And also my friend Cat had a child....babies babies EVERYWHERE!!!!
Not here though....no baby robots just yet.
That is all fare thee well....<3<3 Current Mood: busy Current Music: Bats For Lashes- Horse And I
01:50 am - Yes yes yall I aint dead So I am printing out all of my old entries. WOW FUCKING WEE!!! THERE IS ALOT OF HISTORY HERE!!! Break ups...Prison...DV Convos...DV Drama...Art....Sadness...Gladness...tranformations....I love it!!! It's so nice to look on the past and go "Whoa look at me now"
I'm going to make an ACIDKAETI LIVEJOURNAL SCRAPBOOK....because one day they will need these records of my life.
Big dreams...big hopes.
So to update I am working for Paganman.com...which works with HUSTLER!!! I am doing sales and other things and really putting alot of energy into it.
So that is why this is silent sometimes. Computer screens are my job so I write my thoughts on paper...but perhaps that will change after I make this scrapbook....who knows. I am so chaotic the only thing that I now is great things are in my stars and everything that I have been dreaming of is coming to life!!!
If you want to connect remember my myspace and such because that is the best way to reach me as of now.
Love this! Things are going good by the way...soooo busy it's crazy. I am trying to get this new job working sales for a site that is partnered with Hustler!!!! I am really pushing it so I can get it...
I have been writing on paper more lately which is good because I stopped kind of. It's weird I can't explain why I stopped it just happened.
Time to dry laundry and push naked womens pictures.
01:48 am - Meow So here is a random LJ post...I swear MYSPACE IS A VAMPIRE....for some reason i dont want to leave livejournal behind though.
Voodoo is laying at my feet as I type this...he always does that since I set up the art desk.... it's one of my many tiny little pleasures.
Anyways what is going now is I am still in Florida with my lovely librarian.
We have Voodoo who is getting over having tummy parasites from being outside.
We splurged around and on X-mas and got the following: A USB turntable that turns all your vinyl into mp3s A PS2 (the reissued ones that are sleek) for Guitar Hero 3 Grand Theft Auto and Manhunt 2 A WII which we LOVE... we have the general sports games, Super Mario Brothers and Trauma Center:New Blood which is a realistic surgery game that I am obsessed with whenever I get into my WII fits. Oh and we use the internet to watch youtube on the tv which is AWESOME! Various DVDS which I can't even begin to name since we get so many coming and going it's hard to remember
So since we splurged we are a little tight because new car payments are a bitch and two times our bank account was only 3 dollars short for rent so the checks bounced and THATS 75 BUCKS so we owed big moolah to the Nazis in the office who act like they are going to kick out their meal ticket tenants. They are giving people 2 MONTHS FREE RENT now from apartments only a tiny bit smaller than ours and they are paying $250 less than us!!!! They are having problems getting people to move in here, we bounce 2 times by accident after holidays and they threaten to kick us out in 3 days if we didn't pay?!?!?!?!? THAT'S NOT EVEN LEGAL!!!!! They use language to scare people to sound like they can kick us out in 3 days but it's a fact that you have 30 days if you are evicted by law. Thank god we had the money (barely) so now we are skimping on our cable and other things.
I have been looking for a job close to us that isn't fast food. I have been a baby about that because I just know how much it will effect me. I honestly don't think it's good for my sanity to work in the food service industry. But I might have to suck it up and do it. I don't know if I am that strong right now though to really deal with that shit. So I am really working at trying to get something better right now before last resorts.
The only thing is the economy is so shitty alot of places are just not hiring.
So today I am trying to get everything all nice and typed up and exact so I can send in resumes to the nice places that are kind of close.
I am not looking forward to walking/biking in the heat of the summer but who knows maybe the hours will be so that I can just use the car. Just some simple part time job would be good until I can get a nicer full time one.
All this has really been a stress on us. I mean in general things are great with us. We are in the deepest love and our rediscovering our talents in art and music. We by now means have a shitty life. I have a wonderful magic kitty, a blessed apartment that is around awesome nature in a great part of town, my man has a great job that he loves...the future is grand. The NOW is grand. It's only the financial things that eat at our nerves.
It's only the MAN trying to keep us down!!!!
And on that note I HIGHLY RECOMMEND EVERYONE SEE THIS MOVIE-- YOU CAN SEE IT FREE ON THIS WEBPAGE !! But before you click and see it please let me state that it is in sections. Each section connects to the next, and they are all related. Don't watch this movie if you are prone to schizophrenic paranoia or any kind of super severe depression.... Try not to watch it on psychedelics if you are sensitive/empathetic. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO GRAPHIC IMAGERY/PAIN THERE IS A FAST FORWARD FOR A REASON...(This warning is for the DVD release not necessarily the web release)
I am only stating this because when I watched it, with a couple drinks, I still felt ANGRY, UPSET AND SICK....but that is just because I am a good natured person who is HIGHLY empathetic/sensitive to energy. This movie goes beyond silly politics. I am in the process of finding sites to cites every claim this film makes which I am sure won't take too long because alot of the information I already knew...they just connected all the friggin dots and made me go "GOD DAMMIT I KNEW I WAS RIGHT!"
I know a lot of you might already go "Pssssh I knew that!" when you watch parts of it....I know I did... but the thing I love about this movie is it clearly gives good information in a easy to consume fashion. In short it is made as a learning tool. On the site they talk about Z-DAY where people will show the movie at all different kinds of venues...even in their homes. I am careful who I show it to around me because I know that some people just are not ready for the truth. My mom, for example, would not benefit from seeing this. She needs to focus on just her. And in the end we all do....just remember that. All you can do is good around you. Pay off your debts, don't invest in big banks, don't use credit cards, ect...that is how we can hit the man where he hurts. You of course must play the game of life, but it doesn't mean you have to play fair! (Like they are anyways hehehe)
Okay enough ranting on the real world...it's time for me to share some pictures...under the cut.